Getting Older

i have come to the sudden realization that high school friends must be only that, just for high school, of course im not a hundred percent sure yet, but im pretty positive. as teens grow into adults and begin to start their own lives they suddenly find their own interests and their own way of life, which is to be expected, we were being prepared for this to happen since day 1 of high school. what i was not prepared for however, is the sudden loss of friendship simply due to the new interests/way of life of others. it is slightly puzzling and very strange to me, but a very noticable part of getting older. now maybe its not so much a "loss" of friendship so much as an intense drift.... im not sure, but whatever it is i dont think anyone is ever prepared for it. i cant help but wonder what else will change as more time goes on, as we all get older. will we even recognize people we spent years with in high school 5 or 10 years down the road while waiting in line at the grocery store or getting fuel? it seems silly too me for us all to allow this "parting" to happen, however it almost seems inevitable with little means of prevention.

So it's been a while...

So I def. need to update, May 24th was our wedding, it went GREAT!! The weather was nice and we had a blast! We went to Wyoming for a week and it was AWESOME!!! I can't wait until someday when we can move there! I'll be 21 in 13 days! Woop woop! Can't wait! I'm currently working at the Micheals warehouse in Centrailia and LOVE it, I finally know why I hated most previous jobs, I HAVE too keep moving, or I get so damn bored it's not worth it too me. So that's about it, just wanted to update!!!

Gettin Hitched!!!

So Ben and I are gettin married tomorrow at 2!!! I'm sooooooo excited!!! Mostly, I'm excited to have Ben as my husband :) :) but, I'm also EXTREMELY excited to be done with all this planning and running around like crazy person, lol! I can't wait to finally be married to Ben!! We also can't wait to start our own family! Of course we're going to hold off on that until we are financially stable, but we are def. taking the biggest step in begining our family :)

Communication is Key

So of course we all know that communication is key to any successful relationship, today I had the best example of this. I just can't believe that people will just lose their entire relationships knowing that it takes maintinence, communication, and sometimes a lot of hard work! I couldn't imagine what that would even be like, it's like they just give up unknowingly, it's really sad too me. I'm glad to say that the example I had in front of me did reconcile, but it took me stepping in and just helping (mediating really) them get through the issues they had left untouched for long enough to cause some stress and alot of hard feelings. They were on the brink of talking divorce when I had gotten the call from my friend at about 4pm, by 8pm we had gone over the issues and everything went back to peaceful again in their home. It really does amaze me how much people will forget to communicate with their sig. other, and they generally don't realize how much they are risking until its close to being too late. Just thought I would share that with you all and remind you to always ALWAYS keep up communication, it is key.

suicide

Someone I knew committed suicide this last weekend, its saddening, angering and a big slap of reality all at the same time. I didn't know him well, I didn't know him long either, but it still hits harder then one would ever think possible. When one hears of a person commiting suicide, we usually say oh thats sad, but when you have a face to place it too, someone who you've spoken to and joked with, its 10x worse. It proves that you never really know until it happens, he was a fun lovin guy who seemed happy go lucky all the time. He was only 19 and had so much life left to live, so many experiences left to die with him. It makes you feel like there had to be something you missed, like there was something so obvious that it should have smacked you in the face, but there was nothing, and it cost him his life. I dont know what was going through his mind or why someone would rather end their life, but it really needs to be said that there is not enough awareness about depression and suicide. I dont know exactly how to feel right now, but its hard.